Mood: Happy! Reveling in freedom!
Tastiest thing I've eaten today: I'm eating it right now. A day-old Fred Meyer cream-filled doughnut
Most annoying moment of the day (so far): Hearing, upon waking up this morning, other people's voices. Yes, I'm cranky.
As I peruse my recent posts, I notice a trend. And that trend is my rancor in references about my children, who you've come to know as Fruit Bat and Kitty Cat. Part of it is that I'm trying (trying!), in these posts, to amuse myself and you. The other part is that I'm totally burned out right now.
This morning I was looking at them (my kids), and I knew I loved them, but it was a distant sort of hazy love. Mostly, I was thinking: I need some freaking space! The sounds of their voices nearly drove me to the back of my closet.
Often when I'm with them, love and admiration settles within me like a soft, new snow (not that you'd know it by my blog), but today I need to be my own person for a while. I need to not hear: "Mom! Mama! Mommy! Where's mommy? Hey, mom!" I need to move about the house without little footfalls trailing me. I need to do a few things at my own pace.
Thankfully, "Jay" took them to the zoo. I am alone! I hear nothing but the sounds of leaf blowers outside and the caws of crows (all lovely white noise that requires no action on my part). Hopefully this little respite will refresh me somewhat. Hopefully, when they all come tumbling in the door, chattering and whining and singing, I will be able to gaze upon my children with the appreciation they deserve. Hopefully I will, for half a day, feel somewhat in control and not like a balsa wood paddle onto which is stapled an elastic cord attached to a rubber ball that is my patience level. My patience level that keeps getting away from me and snapping back into place, getting away from me, then snapping back into place.